When our son was rushed to the hospital, we knew. Oh, how we knew. My heart hurt, heavy and burning in my chest. I couldn't talk, knowing I'd break down and weep on his frail shoulders. So instead I cuddled. I held my forty pound nine year-old tight while he was pricked and prodded, while viles and viles of blood were taken from his skinny arms.
And I knew. I knew what his future would be like. I knew the sleepless nights he and I (and Hubby...but mostly me) would face for the rest of our lives. I knew the eight to ten finger pricks he'd have to do...for the rest of his life. I knew I'd have to teach my boy who struggled with math how to count carbs. How to read a label and measure food.
"If you're having 1 1/2 cups of cereal and 2/3 cup has 36 carbs, how many carbs are in 1 1/2 cups?" Yeah, try teaching a fourth grader who was in Title 1 math those equations. But we did. "You need .5 cc of insulin for every 25 carbs and you're eating 62 carbs. How much insulin do you need?" And he learned. Every snack, every meal is a math problem.
But living with type 1 diabetes is so much more than math and finger pricks and shots.
They can't go to practice or start their game without testing their finger and making sure their blood sugar is in a good range. They have to think about their pod location and where it may come in contact during their event. (Last week, Little Guy's pod came off his leg during a basketball game after he took a tumble. He had to come off the court and we had to start a new pod...which can be a process).
My two diabetics are self-conscious in the summer. Until there's a cure, they'll always have a pod stuck to their arm, leg, belly or back. Without it, they'll die. If their insulin stops working in the middle of the night, death is that much closer for them.
If they get sick, they're more likely to have crazy blood sugar numbers, which can lead to ketoacidosis, and possibly death. If they don't manage their diabetes they could lose fingers, toes, legs. They could have kidney failure and need to go on kidney dialisis. They're more apt to have nerve damage, to go blind. Already Princess's eye sight has gone from 20-20 to...not so great.
But today I celebrate life. I celebrate Princess living eight and a half years living with diabetes and Little Guy living one year with diabetes. Besides their life-long diseases, they're healthy children who are going to live long, full lives. For that, I am thankful.
Happy One-Year Diaversary, Little Guy. You're the bravest, cutest, most adorable son a mom could ask for.
Hugs and kisses.